Treadmill day 16

Time: 4 hours, 30 minutes

Distance: 11.61

Total cals burned for the week: 4671 (above 890 cals per day each day walked)

Body adjustments: Did the first three hours solid, again. I could have made the final hour and a half to two hours but I got a branch or a piece of cement in my eye or something and had to get off.

Our egos are so fragile. So so fragile. I get up the courage to bring some clarity to a situation I was holding back on and the response was overwhelming and knocked me off my feet. It’s really hard to get your mindset out of the constant cycle of “I’m wrong, you’re right.” So anyway I just spent the last hour crying and feeling hurt. But for the first time in a long time I just let myself have it. Instead of pushing it away and pretending it doesn’t hurt and just get over it, be a big girl, be an adult, all that bullshit I decided to sit down and own it. So tonight feeling a bit fragile, not pushing it away, letting it move through me and tomorrow I’ll handle it with clear headedness and love.

Besides that I had a GREAT day on the treadmill. I have found that I get a lot of work done because just browsing the net while walking makes me wonder how much time has gone by. So having a movie on one screen, and working on the other, makes the time go by very quickly. If I didn’t end up bursting in to tears (not helped by the SHITTY ENDING of the romantic movie One Day) but I could have hit 5 hours for the first time today confidently. Thankyou muscle forming weekend. This is going to be a great walking week.