The more I experience this journey the more I find myself obsessed with it. I don’t think obsession is a bad thing if it’s what I need to fuel me forward to get to my goals.
This also means this sort of stuff is always on my mind. All the way home I was trying to calculate how well, or not well, I’d eaten today. But right now anything over what my Optifast diet is allowed is considered ‘not well’. I even had a delicious lamb, cous cous, lettuce and feta salad for lunch with a side of chips that I gave to Mike after I’d had about a third of them. I had mineral water, an apple cider beer thing, a vodka and lemonade drink and then finished with some nice English Breakfast. I think I did very well considering I said yesterday I’ll pace myself and have a salad, then today when I got to the pub I basically wiped all of that out of my mind and said yes I want a steak sandwich. The thing that stopped me was seeing a steak sandwich at the next table and not being very impressed about it. So I did have the salad, at $18 a plate (eep).
We walked a bit too, I walked about 5km today- or as Mike’s pedometer stated, almost 5000 steps which is a great count for us.
Either way, I have a great inner conflict. Impulsive eating vs Wanting to fuel my body and make it work to the best it can. All other times, except when it comes to moments of eating and making a choice, I am ready to do good for my body and give it what it needs. I want to do everything I can to stick to the three shakes a day and veggies. I want to be clear in the head at the moments of eating. Just make the decision and do it.
I really, really want some Coolrunning gear but I’m so broke. I’d love the new buff they have offered, and also one of those visors but all together it’s $50. Also I’d love to do the Sri Chinmoy in September at Yarra Boulevard but that’s another $20. I didn’t want to do it but that was before I could run 5km. Now I just want to do it all the time! Having a short term goal before the MM I think is good, but I don’t know if I’ll get the money before hand.
Anyway enough of my money whinging! I think if I’m determined enough I can try and find some money somewhere… we’ll have to wait and see. Maybe I’m not ready for the Sri Chinmoy race.
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